I was given an answer to a question I had been pondering, on and off for nearly 3 years, and tonight... I found it.
I never thought I'd be able to relate, or understand, but sometimes, for some reason or another, you are put into a situation, that may not be your cup of tea, and the most we can hope for is to get out relatively unscathed.
Im not saying life is peachy keen, by all means it isn't! But at least that something that has been nagging at the back of my brain every once in awhile...the mystery of it... is solved. Oh happy day! errr night!
Your ugly, but that intrigues me...
I also in league with no internet have given up television... however I am managing to keep up with LOST and jeebus it's crazy as ever YAY! No worries no spoilers here!
So I'll have my internet back at the end of March or beginning of April so hopefully ill update a bit better then.
Ciao!
- Location:Cal
- Mood:
content - Music:Ingrid Michealson: Overboard
I'm going to do a little clean up of my friends page... some of you i never talk to... sorry to say...nothing personal it's just not working out... I'm going to add some new friends and get rid of a few old. (if i've posted or youve posted in the last month no worries, or if i know you in person) Also going to get rid of some comms so if you do want to remain friends and have just been busy just comment
Ciao
Since the day after Thanksgiving, I have lost 5 people in my life... really 6 but 5 permanently. My grandma died on 11/26 and since then 4 people (family and friends) have followed suit. Most recently Josh a friend of mine passed away... a week or so ago now... he was only 22. Life was always hard for him... he was constantly in and out of the hospital... he was always brave and looking at the bright side of things... I wish i could have his faith, and inner strength. This for me is a time of growth... I know a great change is ahead I don;t know if its for better or worse, but I need to change. Part of me wants to run screaming and crying from this mess and not deal with it... but i fear I will keep losing people until I find what it is I need to find. Maybe this just a freak happening that all these people are dying around me? But maybe it isn't. I;m so overwhelmed, and I need someone to lean on but the very person i thought i had is gone... maybe it's time for me to stand on my own wholly and completely.
Mat and I are over, and I'm also looking for another place to live... which is proving difficult because the girl who is in line to be my roomate seems to want it to be soully up to me to procure a place.
Life has shit in my cereal i suppose.
But some random stranger told me good things are going to come my way maybe thats the case.
I'm having some trouble...apparently my posts aren't showing up on my friend's lists... so If you can see this pleeeease let me know... other wise I have to ask LJ wtf is going on!
- Mood:
cranky
cheerful